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Sunday, December 27, 2009
. Menghubuh perasaan aku sendiri...personal...]
Hati ku merase pedih sekali....
Tidak ku pernah merasai malu dan kecik hati...
Aku terime kesilapan ku buat padamu tapi tidak perlu kau menghubuh satu dunia...
Maruah aku hilang sekajap gitu yg ku rase....
Kini ku sedari...yang aku buat silap besar dengan kau...yang kau simpan dalam selame ini....
Aku boleh berubah...kau tahu itu....tapi kenape kene bergini syg ku.....
kau tidak tahu berape malu ye aku yang kau sanggup kate dengan senang hati kau itu....
Walaupun hati aku pernah diluke dari mu....Ku tidak pernah malu kan mu segitu skali.... sampai org2 menuduh aku..dengan yang orang pikir yang ku berdosa kepade mu...
hati ku tidak boleh tahan pedihan ini..........biarlah ku luke sendiri....dan akan tamat dengan satu hari nanti ku tk meyusah kn mu dan smuanye...biar hati ku bunuh dalam nyawe ku ini......
gangstarapkid 9:44 PM
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Thursday, November 12, 2009
. nids his hugs]
I miss him so much....waiting for you to be free dear....
muackz!! xoxoxo!!
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Wednesday, November 11, 2009
. Re-gain My Own Streaght]
its been awhile yeah..?? since i touch my blog....so much had happen so much this few months....i had new job which keeps me goin too pass by time....And i have not much time to hang out or wat so ever.....even i miss it so much.....here i go again to tell how i'm feeling rite now....i just want to slap my face and say everything goin to be alrite....but haish...Things kept on thinking about my dear....i miss him so much since his bz with his new scadule..its hard for me to get my streaght back whn just one nite gone wrong....it was just a rendem ckeck and i found sumthing was wrong...To felt so shock and everything when so slow ,my heart was pumping so fast while my heart shatter to small parts...then i realise for moment mayb i was over reacting abt it...Yet still it bring flash abt the past....when things started so small then never been corrected as a mistake,it may bring the furture all so wrong.... i been there and done that...But when things happen again...i just feeling so lost and just worried to my deepest soul......Even we made up about it..not that i'm sayin i'm not happy abt out it.....its i just don't feel complete rite now....i shall nvr blame him to understand what i gone trought...shall time heal my pain or sumthing else????I love him so dearly.....and nvr want to lose him....plus he love me too.....as he said....Day dreaming trought the thin air...i'm lost of words that i had once love someone ever so dearly which in the end it went wrong just wrong from simply white lie.....shall it happen again too me??Oh..please help as i said to myself...cause i know no one will understand my feelings rite now....and i dun want my old mis-trust judgement like the old times i had done....I just miss him ever so dearly of his swit text msgs when we don't mit...when we go out only the both of us when nobody can disturb us while enjoyin it to our fullest...all the romance he put me trought...we laughed and we cried side by side.....when he was sick i would be there no matter wat even it was a simple flu...Yet i know he nids his time too with his family and friends which i never stopped him at all.... when during bfor he knows how to manage it but now mayb his too tired to think of us that much..that is so he just go on the flow whoever text him to go out or went out to eat or even when ever he wants to got to most....i can't stand bloggin at this mmt with tears flowing and angry who would understand me now...i shall continue whn re gain my streaght....with love
gangstarapkid 4:51 AM
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Wednesday, June 24, 2009
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yes that 20/06/09....wat more can i asked for juz to mit my mates...it could bring me tears that how i really miss that all funnatic and drunken mates.yeah even theres a lil clash..but neh it nvr stop us at the dance floor...
the ppl who i seen them from the start...had grown so much and they really stand whr they are...even its not perfect...it will work it out soon altr...
I LOVE YOU ALL
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Wednesday, June 17, 2009
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MEMORIES!!!!!
THE TWO MAKE ME WET2... =p HAHAH
CLASS PHOTO '08
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CHicky,Me&MetRO(taken 2008 mid june)
looking at my old pic...this catch my eyes...this two are one kind joker friends i met...
as harmless as they looked, well they are not at all....they were there whn i really in deep troble..
for anyone they love they willing to do anything to treat they are one of my blood....
Both of them really have heart to cheer ppl up...they were my happy pill when ever i were down in the past....
Now both of them are away frm me and the ppl they left....
still waiting both of them came bck...
hopefully they will be clean and atleast change for the better....
As i knw both of them still are my bros....
I MISS YOU MY BROTHERS!!!
gangstarapkid 12:09 PM
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Wednesday, June 10, 2009
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BABY BOI AYESSH LOVE ALL OVER
NEW Black LONG SLEAVE AND NEW SHORT SKIRTS
Well today...nothing much really but i really have a great timw with my dearest....
We went out for my waxing...and trust me it was full of pain!!! =P hahaha...
Later then we catch the termitor movie....yeah it was cool and all...
Its been awhile we really went out together...we sneek in with famouse amos cookies..heee...
Right after that we both slack at the river side...yeah thats the mmt i will nvr forget always...
Yeah,i really do appriecate him after his night shift work he have short nap then we went out...
I can see he is tired but yes dearly he really know how to spent time with me wisely...
Sumhow i felt the high fly love all over again..Seeing him being all so swit and doesn't care abt what the public see and talked abt wats goin on his work and all...its just him show his cute face,smile and the kerek2 joke we love to make...heee..i had great time..After slacking we back home my baby home then watch a dvd sumthing abt vilonce but it was cool again...
sumthing abt a x secret agent family tree been killed and he only survive and set revenge..we cuddle together..
Right afte that, he sented me back home..Slack for awhile at my home waiting for my parents to be bck....as always...
Its really like he really2 spent the day with me and only me...its been awhile seruisely...
can see he was tired i told him to go home to have a gd rest since he will be workin the nxt day..
Thank you Baby Boi Ayessh
LOVE IZFA
gangstarapkid 10:58 AM
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I miss him so much....waiting for you to be free dear....
yes that 20/06/09....wat more can i asked for juz to mit my mates...it could bring me tears that how i really miss that all funnatic and drunken mates.yeah even theres a lil clash..but neh it nvr stop us at the dance floor...
MEMORIES!!!!!
THE TWO MAKE ME WET2... =p HAHAH
THE GIRLS
THE GIRLS WHO WHICH BRING FAITH BACK
THE NEW MADNESS
MEETING NEW FACES
WERE CLOSE
DRUNKEN MOMENTS
NEW OUTSIDER
THE SKINS
CHicky,Me&MetRO
BABY BOI AYESSH 
NEW Black LONG SLEAVE AND NEW SHORT SKIRTS
