Kisses From Her

Menghubuh perasaan aku sendiri...personal...

2009-12-27T21:44:00.001-08:00

Hati ku merase pedih sekali....

Tidak ku pernah merasai malu dan kecik hati...

Aku terime kesilapan ku buat padamu tapi tidak perlu kau menghubuh satu dunia...

Maruah aku hilang sekajap gitu yg ku rase....

Kini ku sedari...yang aku buat silap besar dengan kau...yang kau simpan dalam selame ini....

Aku boleh berubah...kau tahu itu....tapi kenape kene bergini syg ku.....

kau tidak tahu berape malu ye aku yang kau sanggup kate dengan senang hati kau itu....

Walaupun hati aku pernah diluke dari mu....Ku tidak pernah malu kan mu segitu skali.... sampai org2 menuduh aku..dengan yang orang pikir yang ku berdosa kepade mu...

hati ku tidak boleh tahan pedihan ini..........biarlah ku luke sendiri....dan akan tamat dengan satu hari nanti ku tk meyusah kn mu dan smuanye...biar hati ku bunuh dalam nyawe ku ini......

nids his hugs

2009-11-12T06:53:00.000-08:00

I miss him so much....waiting for you to be free dear....
muackz!! xoxoxo!!

Re-gain My Own Streaght

2009-11-11T04:51:00.001-08:00

its been awhile yeah..?? since i touch my blog....
so much had happen so much this few months....
i had new job which keeps me goin too pass by time....
And i have not much time to hang out or wat so ever.....even i miss it so much.....

here i go again to tell how i'm feeling rite now....
i just want to slap my face and say everything goin to be alrite....but haish...
Things kept on thinking about my dear....i miss him so much since his bz with his new scadule..
its hard for me to get my streaght back whn just one nite gone wrong....
it was just a rendem ckeck and i found sumthing was wrong...
To felt so shock and everything when so slow ,my heart was pumping so fast while my heart shatter to small parts...then i realise for moment mayb i was over reacting abt it...
Yet still it bring flash abt the past....when things started so small then never been corrected as a mistake,it may bring the furture all so wrong.... i been there and done that...
But when things happen again...i just feeling so lost and just worried to my deepest soul......
Even we made up about it..not that i'm sayin i'm not happy abt out it.....its i just don't feel complete rite now....i shall nvr blame him to understand what i gone trought...shall time heal my pain or sumthing else????

I love him so dearly.....and nvr want to lose him....plus he love me too.....as he said....
Day dreaming trought the thin air...i'm lost of words that i had once love someone ever so dearly which in the end it went wrong just wrong from simply white lie.....shall it happen again too me??
Oh..please help as i said to myself...cause i know no one will understand my feelings rite now....and i dun want my old mis-trust judgement like the old times i had done....

I just miss him ever so dearly of his swit text msgs when we don't mit...when we go out only the both of us when nobody can disturb us while enjoyin it to our fullest...all the romance he put me trought...we laughed and we cried side by side.....when he was sick i would be there no matter wat even it was a simple flu...

Yet i know he nids his time too with his family and friends which i never stopped him at all.... when during bfor he knows how to manage it but now mayb his too tired to think of us that much..that is so he just go on the flow whoever text him to go out or went out to eat or even when ever he wants to got to most....

i can't stand bloggin at this mmt with tears flowing and angry who would understand me now...i shall continue whn re gain my streaght....with love

2009-06-24T02:09:00.000-07:00

yes that 20/06/09....wat more can i asked for juz to mit my mates...it could bring me tears that how i really miss that all funnatic and drunken mates.yeah even theres a lil clash..but neh it nvr stop us at the dance floor...

the ppl who i seen them from the start...had grown so much and they really stand whr they are...even its not perfect...it will work it out soon altr...

I LOVE YOU ALL

2009-06-17T12:20:00.000-07:00

MEMORIES!!!!!
THE TWO MAKE ME WET2... =p HAHAH

CLASS PHOTO '08

THE GIRLS

THE GIRLS WHO WHICH BRING FAITH BACK

THE NEW MADNESS

THE PIMP WAS THERE

THE MOMENT WHEN WE WERE CLOSE

MEETING NEW FACES

WERE CLOSE

WAS THE BIGGINING..WHAT HAPPEN ??
WISH IS WAS LAST TIME

DRUNKEN MOMENTS

NEW OUTSIDER

RAIN OR SHINE WE UNITE

THE SKINS

i just so ever wonder....whr the happy hyper crazy moments have gone too... where frenship,knwledge and pride was all there in one...

when ever so down rite now things nvr be like the past...

its never a END in the scene its always a new Chapter...

Like always there will be tears of joy and saddness...

who will really knw how to stand this far in this furture..??

TIME WILL TELL....

2009-06-17T12:09:00.000-07:00

CHicky,Me&MetRO

(taken 2008 mid june)

looking at my old pic...this catch my eyes...this two are one kind joker friends i met...

as harmless as they looked, well they are not at all....they were there whn i really in deep troble..

for anyone they love they willing to do anything to treat they are one of my blood....

Both of them really have heart to cheer ppl up...they were my happy pill when ever i were down in the past....

Now both of them are away frm me and the ppl they left....

still waiting both of them came bck...

hopefully they will be clean and atleast change for the better....

As i knw both of them still are my bros....

I MISS YOU MY BROTHERS!!!

2009-06-10T10:58:00.000-07:00

BABY BOI AYESSH

LOVE ALL OVER

NEW Black LONG SLEAVE AND NEW SHORT SKIRTS

Well today...nothing much really but i really have a great timw with my dearest....

We went out for my waxing...and trust me it was full of pain!!! =P hahaha...

Later then we catch the termitor movie....yeah it was cool and all...

Its been awhile we really went out together...we sneek in with famouse amos cookies..heee...

Right after that we both slack at the river side...yeah thats the mmt i will nvr forget always...

Yeah,i really do appriecate him after his night shift work he have short nap then we went out...

I can see he is tired but yes dearly he really know how to spent time with me wisely...

Sumhow i felt the high fly love all over again..Seeing him being all so swit and doesn't care abt what the public see and talked abt wats goin on his work and all...its just him show his cute face,smile and the kerek2 joke we love to make...heee..i had great time..After slacking we back home my baby home then watch a dvd sumthing abt vilonce but it was cool again...

sumthing abt a x secret agent family tree been killed and he only survive and set revenge..we cuddle together..

Right afte that, he sented me back home..Slack for awhile at my home waiting for my parents to be bck....as always...

Its really like he really2 spent the day with me and only me...its been awhile seruisely...

can see he was tired i told him to go home to have a gd rest since he will be workin the nxt day..

Thank you Baby Boi Ayessh

LOVE IZFA

tell the truth and everything the truth.....

2009-06-09T11:21:00.000-07:00

Get this straight for once and for all.....
I hope this answer to Afah,Goofy and the others such spread of such things....
i seruisely dun f^ckin want this to pointed at me....so hear my side of the story wokiee.....

K first...
its about the last friday during comic strip performed at xplanet....Everything went so well having fun and all...and its like i been awahile from my mates for quite sumtime now... i really happy to see them...even i heard such conflict or watever i heard frm each of them..... i came there to mit my mates and skank together once again....

After the gig....i just wonder first why afah was so moody like everyone asked..she throw faces to the girls mostly that confronted me that she is...and it was bcoz of her spam blog thing that everyone talked abt..... yeah i seen it coz sumone told me to read wat she wrote down abt this sumone.....so yeah....then the spam thing caught my eye after i read it..its the truth...so bck on that day....after having my dinner wit ayessh dearest....i went to memo...yeah i wonder whr the others went...after awhile i sat there wit rad,farah,bf,kucing and entah sape lagi ar...then ernie came... sayin the others was at the other side of memo....so i came there...salam afah...yeah like everyone said she throw her face when ppl salam her...fine.. i get that..so yeah its not a big deal again..i came there..to knw wassup and i asked more then three times to them ...best kn org buat mcm tembok..... i felt so deeply mad sumhow...never bfor theres a wall rite infront of me...

After that i went to the front again....yeah with such temper....seruise ppl who was there know.... and yeah out of sudden saw Akna came...and i straight asked a stupid question ko sblah aku ker afah and more like treaten abt jerry blck?? i had no idea...everyone was blurr...then i take my words bck...i said so sorry to akna...coz i nvr mean to treaten him or say abt siding afah or me....its my bloody temper!!! and i said it to AKNA JE!!!! thats all i could remember!!!!

AND
F^CK SHIT !!!! the nxt day ...goofy called me...in such tone in gd "manner" and asked where by i spamed afah blog and asked abt the akna thing!!???? so wat rite now?? u and others are pointing at me??? f^ck ar ur just asking!!!! juz for that one nite that abt akna!! keco per korg...i told u, i was at rage!!!! like afah is showin her down face to most of everyone...aku tkd mase utk spam2 nie smua.....and seruise afah i dun go asked everyone else who side who...who the shit tell u that i go asked one by one who side who ????? who??!!!!!!!!
well i chatted with abby just now..and he told me u said that i go asked one by one who side who ??? is he lying?? he copied wat u said afah.... plz!!! who is spreadin the wrg words now??!!! what do i have agaist you...after all this years afah gd and bad i still face u as a mentor thats all..... how many times do you have to say such things about me??!!! yes theres for the good and theres a mistake from wat u said in the past....we forgive and we forget but do you ??? i do...

GET THIS EHK..SO MY NAME IS BAD BCOZ OF YOUR SPAM THINGY AND THE SHIT HEADS THINKS ABT THE SIDES THING??? ITS A SPAM FOR GODDNESS SAKE!!! YOU CAN BUAT BODOH SEI.. I MAY NOT KNOW WATS MORE TO KNOW ABT THE SPAM THING...YOU CAN ASKED ME DIRECTLY...?? BUT NO lah sei.... faces and the gossip2 thing happens....

So i end here wokie...if anything more u wanna know more asked wokie......like it or not just put at my tagged aite...

P.S = For the other mates i'm sorry that you have to see this..... but i have too...i arn't ashame of anything but seruise get the story rite !!!!

TAKE CARE.....

2009-06-09T07:08:00.000-07:00

LOVE KODA ALWAYS

hmm..where have the years gone..when i remember she was young decent girl when i first met..

i miss all the druken moments together... Now she's all grow up..

She and Aini went trought alot..All the tears and laughter we went trought..

All the fun,the pride,the drinkin,the frenship it will never be forgotten...

Thought we are now in separete life..We know we love each other no matter what..
Thinking about this all over again.. i just wish my mates will have a clean frenship and dun give the fu^k, whose the best whose or the worst...

i just want the time that we love to help each other..

where we stand our ground together help each other bck..

like the person or not..we are still the same...

rite now its like so different...i just wish some of the mates change put the happy face and hang out together..Where RESPECT still around...

i hope in time gets better...=)

love izfa

2009-06-08T11:02:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY GUMMY BEAR!!!!

love from abg Ayessh & ur blood sister Izfa

A few moments ago...i was back from Gummy Bear & Is birthday bbq pit..well even me and my dearest came later on...and we have to buy some drinks for my dearest bro and his frens... yeah enul,akna,fonzie,fatin,aisyah and mizi was there....the ppl whom i knw....

This Cute Couple that i'm handling right now.

They are the switees thing to be seen.

I'm glad my brother have found his love and new friends.

Just proud of him right now within the months he change for a better person.

He is still the JeRK in the house but his mine jerk.

hehe..

Gummy,Is,Enul & Zie

when the nite starts crazy...when enul start his drunken talk the place have when siow2.he gave my bf the creeps..haha...well he did put the smile on us... when others like always talking trash..haha...its fine with me..

Before i left last shot.. was disturbing Enul.. thats crazy kid.. haha..

End with love IzFa...

New Start...

2009-06-08T10:16:00.000-07:00

Thank you to Ernie Switee =)

All right then..finally i make a dicision to have my own blog. thanks to Erine helping me out...

Well since my life full of tears and laughter why not share it out rite....so yeah.... i'll be bloggin soon... heee....